Stay at home mother - SAHM

I am counting a days to get back to work. Insyallah, I'll start working with new company next week. Oh...Monday blues. huhuhu

Perasaan saat ini - rasa macam-macam - sedih, berdebar, risau, takut. It seems like the negative feelings took over me at this moment. Sekarang ni asyik dok peluk & cium Nuha je. Dia pun naik rimas. hahaha. I wish I could stay at home any longer. Oh, Nuha already took her first few steps this week. Makin hari makin mahir melangkah. Well done my darling.

Since I left my job & stay at home, I've got so many people will asking me this popular question. "Tak boring ke duduk rumah jaga anak?" Frankly speaking, I never felt bored at all. Stay at home was heaven. Bukan duduk rumah goyang kaki. Kenalah buat kerja rumah kan. Masak, mengemas, membasuh, mencuci & so on. A never ending job. Letih? Alah bisa tegal biasa. Cewah. Dok ofis lagi letih. Letih berlakon. hahaha ;p

Jaga Nuha - best job ever! Within this 3months, I'd learned a lot, especially on be patient. Sabar jaga anak ni lain. Tak sama macam kita sabar dengan husband. hehehe. There was 1day, were Nuha was so cranky from day to night. Sungguh menguji tahap kesabaran saya. I was tired - physical & mental. And I lost with myself. I scoulded Nuha. Kesian dia. On the next morning, I turn into Prof Muhayya ceramah, and I feel so guilty. I keep on minta maaf with Nuha walaupun dia maybe tak faham. Bukan anak saja yang kena minta maaf pada parent kalau buat salah. Tapi parent pun kena minta maaf pada anak kalau ada yang terkurang dalam mendidik anak. As told by Prof Muhayya.

Miss my job? Hell no. Maybe I'm not an ambitious woman. Takpe. Ramai lagi woman engineer yang hebat di luar sana. Please replace my spot. I want to retired, stay at home & raised up my daughter (and her sibling in future, insyallah).

Maknye over sengih. Abaikan. haha ;p