Mar 28, 2009

Bila Allah menguji kita

Lama saya menyepi utk kali ini
menyepi utk menyembuhkan diri

Khamis,19mac
saya telah dimasukkan ke wad kecemasan Hospital Putrajaya
setelah sakit pada bhgn abdomen yg tak tertahan

sebulan sebelum ini, awal februari, saya pernah dimasukkan ke wad kecemasan atas sakit yg sama
tp Dr tak dapat mengesan apa penyakit saya ketika itu
maklumat dr Dr,darah saya trkena infection

pertengahan februari lalu saya masih terasa kesakitan yg sama
kadang-kadang...

Khamis lalu, sakit ini menyerang semula
dan kali ini lebih sakit dr sebelumnya
setelah Dr melakukan pemeriksaan, saya bersetuju utk dibedah

risiko yg bakal saya hadapi akibat dr pembedahan:
keguguran....
ya,saya mengandung 8mgu stkt mgu lps

namun saya terpaksa merelakan semua risiko yg bakal dihadapi
dgn redha & pasrah hanya kepadaNYA

Saya telah selamat menjalani pembedahan
apendiks saya telah pecah & bernanah...
sudah seminggu pecah

saya sendiri pun tak menyangka
sbb saya langung tidak mengalami sintom2 sakit apendiks
tiada cirit birit,sakit di bhgn kanan perut, mahupun muntah2
walaupun saya diperingkat awal mengandung
loya tu ada..terasa juga
badan pun agak lemah...

pengalaman pertama masuk dlm teater pembedahan:
seram..hanya Allah swt sahaja yg tau gelodak perasaan saya ketika itu
semuanya bercampur baur
takut.sedih.gementar.sakit.pedih....
saya hanyalah insan kerdil yg tidak berdaya

dr apa yg saya dgr,mudarat akibat apendiks yg pecah ini sgt bahaya
boleh hingga ke peringkat membawa maut jika tidak dibedah & dibuang secepat mungkin
saya kira, Allah swt masih menyayangi saya sbg hambaNYA
jika tidak, masakan saya masih bernafas ketika ini
dgn rasa rendah diri, saya amat bersyukur kpdNYA atas nikmat kehidupan, Islam & Iman yg telah dikurniakan olehNYA

Setelah 4hari berada di wad, saya dibenarkan keluar & diberi cuti utk pulihkan badan
Dan...semalam saya & syah ke Hospital Pakar An-Nur utk mengetahui keadaan baby
hiba...pasrah...redha
itulah ungkapan yg saya & suami dpt luahkan
baby kami sudah tiada lg
Dr.fatimah sahkan kandungan saya tidak dpt terbentuk dgn sempurna
& gugur....(saya ada mengalami pendarahan slps pembedahan)

Hanya Allah SWT yg maha mengetahui tentang setiap kejadian yg berlaku kpd hambaNYA
ada hikmah disebalik semua yg berlaku
saya sbg hamba yg hina ini, menginsafi diri & menerima qada' & qadar drpdNYA dgn hati yg terbuka...
semoga sinar esok kan menjelma kembali :)

38 comments:

tia said...

kakak,bersabar ya?
ni semua dugaan tuhan..
saya harap kakak tidak memendam rasa..
kakak kuat.
walaupun say tidak berapa mengenali kakak,
saya tahu, kakak boleh handle semua ini..
semua ini ada hikmah..
kakak sabar ya?
you can do it!
you are the best.!
hehe

Ija1202 said...

Fathiyah,
Be strong...segala ketentuan telah di tentukan oleh-Nya..
Mcm kes sy last year dec jg melalui pembedahan sehingga majlis perkahwinan di tunda May ini...
Tabahkan hati...
insyaAllah ada rezeki x kemana..
yg penting fathiyah telah selamat.

diHa said...

byk2 kan bersabar kak long.. insyaAllah lepas ni Allah akan berikan sinar yg lagi cerah untuk kak long dan suami.. stay strong! =)

m@Ri@ said...

padanla awak menyepi lama..ingat awak busy dgn urusan sbg isteri..tak tau awak sakit..sian awak..sabar ek awak..sy harap awak akan cepat sembuh n ceria mcm selalu..take care dear...

Iena said...

harap ko tabah menghadapinya...
Allah menguji org2 yg DIA sayangi...

dibiuscinta said...

Lama saya tunggu awk update blog, rupenya ada cite disebaliknya..semoga awak tabah dan saya doakan awk cepat sembuh n moga dimurahkan rezeki lg..jaga pemakanan ye..

ungu violet said...

fathi, saya harap awak okey.
jgn sedih ya, mesti ada rezeki lain.
yang penting awak sihat..

doa banyak2 ya, insyaAllah :)

Ecah said...

salam fathi.. sangat lama awak menyepi.. saya pun tertanya-tanya.. sihat ke? atau sakitkah.. semoga dapat melaluinya dengan tabah dan banyak-banyakkan berdoa semoga kesakitan ini berlalu pergi dengan cepat.. banyak-banyakkan berehat supaya cepat sembuh.. semoga pengalaman ini akan menjadikan awak lebih kuat di masa akan datang.. insyaAllah..

+fnajiha said...

oh! takziah about the news, your health and the baby. terkejut bace ur post. tapi, i know u can handle this. ada hikmahnya tu. ape2, yang pasti u boleh mengandung,kan? iAllah.. :)

Anonymous said...

fathiyah..
sya doakan awak makin sembuh..
n, insyaAllah..lps ni ada rezeki
lagi yek...

kuatkan semangat awak ;D


-aida

ilicious said...

kaklong,

terkejut bace ur post, harap u tabah hadapi semua ni.
Insyaallah ada hikmah disebalik ape yg jadi ni.


Take care

nizza-abira said...

Emak sy pernah alami appendiks yg dah pecah ni. Mujur cepat, itu pun dah hampir seminggu baru tahu yg dia kene appendiks. Doc kata leh membahayakan nyawa if appendiks pecah.

Apapun,
Bykkan bersabar ye
Setiap yg berlaku ada hikmahnya...
InsyaAllah, ada rezeki awk & suami nanti.

Salam kenal...
**Sy link awk ye

susudalambotol said...

awakkkkkkk! :(

sori sangat2 kita tak tgk blog awak. sedih lah baca pasal ni. patutlah awak senyap jeeeeeeeee.

awak tabah ye. awak kuat. awak sabar tau!

take care awak.

Fathiyah said...

tia : alhamdullilah,akak ok..akak pon bkn suka bersedih2..family & kwn2 sntiasa ada bg moral support..thanks to tia gak ;)
bila bc komen tia,akak rs brsmgt ;)

ija : btl ckp ija..mmg kene kuatkan smgt..awak pon pnh lalui dugaan juga kan..plg penting tabah..insyallah,rezeki dr Allah sentiasa ada ;)

diha : thanks diha dtg tgk kak long hr tu..sori la coz tak larat nak brsembang..insyallah,mudah-mudahan doa diha utk kak long ni dimakbulkan Allah ;)

maria : thanks awak..kte pon br tau psl apendiks nih..dlm 2bln ni kte kne pantang mkn skit la..

Iena : iena,thanks dtg lawat aku kat hospital hr tu..sori sgt2 sbb aku tak larat ms ko dtg..aku br lps muntah2..rs lemah sgt bdn..best dpt coklat :) ko tau aku suka coklat ek? thanks a lot iena :) sayang ko

dibiuscinta : insyallah,kte kuatkan smgt hdpi dugaan ni..aah,btl ckp awak tuh.makan kene jg..kte kene berpantang..mcm2 tak blh makan..huhu

Fathiyah said...

ungu voilet : kte ok awak..kte dah nangis masa b4 operate..ms tu,kte dah ada instinct yg baby kte tak dpt dislmtkan..redha..skg ni kte nak pulihkan bdn blk..kshtn diri kte dlu..br baby akan sht bila kte pregnant next time..insyallah ;)

ecah : alhamdullilah,kte ok skg..insyallah..thanks ecah ;)

fnajiha : insyallah,mybe blm rezeki kte lg..next time pulak..thanks anet ;)

aida : thanks aida :) kte makin sht..kdg2 terasa jugak bisa kat bhgn operate..insyallah,mybe rezeki menyusul lps ni...

ilicious : dun worry..kte ok..mula2 tu mstla sedih kan..tp,skg i dah ok..thanks ili ;)

nizza-abira : salam kenal :) kes mak awak tu mcm kte lah..apendiks kte pon dah pecah seminggu..& lbh teruk dah bernanah..mmg blh mmbw maut..syukur Allah msh pjgkan umur kte..& mak awak jg..alhamdullilah..
ok,no prob nak link :)

susudlmbotol : insyallah,kte ok awak..mmg kene sntiasa kene brsbr,tabah & kuat :) awak pon kene jg diri ye...bykkan berehat :)

Fazira Aziz said...

Fathiyah sabar yer.. semua berlaku adalah ketentuanNya dan ada hikmahNYa :)

Iena said...

fathy... suka dgr ko dah sihat... psl hr tu xper, aku fhm...

mase sakit la nk tibai tanpa rase bersalah... cuba cam aku skrg... tgk coklat cam ngeri gler... mkn segigit tp berat bdn bleh naik smp sekilo!

nway, selamat 'BERUSAHA' dgn gigih lg... ha3... take care Fathy...
*syg ko jugak!

Nur Hamizah said...

fathiyah dear..

i juz read this entry today.sorry to hear the news. semua yg berlaku pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya.kita doakan keadaan kamu dah bertambah baik lepas ni, dan insyaAllah, moga Allah murahkan rezeki kamu+syah. Take care ok dear!!!

hugs~

Fathiyah said...

fazira aziz : btl3 ;)

Iena : takpe,selagi blh mkn,baik mkn aje.tp jgn byk la.hehe..sendiri mau igt ;p
insyallah,aku akan berusaha lg :)

mizah : TQ mizah :)

nurulanggun said...

salam..
fathi...baru je baca blog fathi nie...sedihnye...nurul smpi nangis...huhu
nway... be strong... InsyaAllah...ada lagi rezeki pada masa depan...bykkan doa..and usaha juga...insyaAllah...

intan-ezu said...

dek yah...b strong ye...insyaAllah..sok lusa ada lagi..

Anonymous said...

hye..bloghopping dan terbaca entry ni..i pun br miscarried masa 2 months preggie..baby xdevelop so kene abort..baru 3 minggu lepas n still berpantang..tabahkan hati ye..sama2 kita doa..Amiiin.

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